status

yang status gua tu bujang. dan belum ada lagi niat dihati untuk merembat bunga di mana mana taman. jadi kalau siapa siapa nak ikut gua, silakan. kita bujang sampai kahwin. sebab kawan gua yang promised nak ikut gua pun cair dengan bunga taik ayam. what the hell? haha.

sekian.

cubit pipi kau

you will learn things in life. feeling is the first thing you will learn, and forever learnt. it is not easy to say something you have gone through, the pain, the happiness and for sure the appreciation. for me, pain and happiness are the basic things that will everyday happen to us. but how much you appreciate the feeling does matter.

I tried to neglect all the pain I get, and tried to cover it up with happiness. well, I could say if no one makes you happy why not you make yourself happy?

I have tried this one thing that has blown up my mind in total. smiling. I was not a smiling person in real and in any of the social media as well. it is not easy to smile when you are tired, fucked up or even when you are mad but I kept practicing myself to smile, even I don't have a really nice smile but that is. through time, I found it interesting, beautiful. you can make a stranger smile back at you with your little stare and smile and sometimes smiling can be a starter for any strangers to become friends!

so what's up with those mixed feelings and stuffs? be beautiful everyday, man. you have a nice smile and please beautify this world with smiles. don't worry about yourself too much because you have God already to take care of you. cheer up the world together, and send beautiful messages to people around you.

because that is one of the reasons we are sent her for, right?

reminiscing the past that we poorly understood

meeting cousins and talked about family matters is kind of new to me. well perhaps we haven't met for a long time so we lepak till 4 though I know I need to get up early on the next day to meet those monkeys in the picture. haha I miss you guys to the moon and back. well, there is something that in the past that we have to let go, but not all of them. 

we will be friends forever kan.

sabar sikit

"keluarga saya bukan jenis yang suka berkongsi masalah. jadi saya perlukan sesuatu untuk lepaskan rasa tertekan dalam jiwa saya ni, kalau tak meletup." - Fynn Jamal

renggang tapi aku masih perlukan sedikit kata untuk merangsang hati yang sudah berhabuk ni, sehingga aku dah lupa bagaimana rasanya, walaupun aku dihidangkan dengan pelbagai rasa, aku tetap memilih untuk mengetepikan rasa cinta. penatnya jika usaha untuk merapatkan kembali yang renggang renggang itu diranap dengan hanya sepatah dua kata yang pada aku sakit jugak sebenarnya. tapi sampai bila? ikut hati aku pergi mati sama kau punya rasa. tapi aku fikir, kita masih keluarga.

kau tak sedih ke bila kau rasa macam tak seronoknya lepak dengan keluarga?

sebelum apa apa

"what brain can conceive and believe, we can achieve."

it's true when people start to talk about what happen to them in their perspective, and we are not the right ones to judge but to bare in mind that we are different in many ways. that makes up life. I tried to be optimist every time I blend with people, or observing. I think I am good with easygoing people, though I am not the one who can be really good at making friends. I wonder these people won my heart easily.

you have to start making friends with me before I do. and that is a very good start between me and you.

Flores

pengalaman gua bergaul dengan pendatang asing memang selamanya memberi kesan kepada gua. nilai hidup yang mereka pegang selama diorang hidup memang gua salute lebih lagi ramah diorang kalau dah dapat masuk tu, gelak memanjang. tadi gua jumpa endon ni isi minyak lori. dia dari Flores, Indonesia. bila dia cakap Flores tu kepulauan, terus gua excited. so gua dah set satu hari nanti mesti pergi Flores. selalu lepak dengan bangla, cakap dengan endon pun jadi macam bangla do. sebab bangla ni happening sikit haha.

kadang rasa syukur, boleh fikir nak menikmati indahnya alam. ada orang tinggalkan keindahan tempat sendiri sebab nak cari rezeki.

senyum

dah sebulan gua belajar senyum, seriously it isn't an easy thing to do. kau boleh kata tak susah senyum tapi cuba kau senyum kat setiap orang yang kau jumpa, lainlah kalau kau menghadap phone or laptop je satu hari. pernah sekali gua dah aim sorang pakcik ni, muka dia masam macam baru lepas makan cuka. then bila dia keluar je kereta gua sampuk dengan senyuman manis, terus dia senyum. comel.

sekarang senyum pada gua bukan bermaksud aku bahagia, tapi biar aku bagi kau bahagia sama.