Passion/s

    
This morning I was thinking about what I did during my free time. I thought time is priceless so we should not waste any of it but as we grow up, I guess it becomes even terrifying. Whenever I look at my watch, questions that appear in my mind is how much I have done for today or what am I going to do after this. I realized that I have spent almost all of my time thinking about my studies, laboratory works, and worrying about my future. I thought studying is my passion; learning something from academic books or journals and try to apply them in the laboratory, not to mention the failure along the way. I also thought that failures and successes are normal. In this situation, having a thought that failure and success are normal was nonetheless made me burnt out. I felt that time has frozen and I could not move forward. Then I found out that actually, we should never be doing our specific passion until we burnt out. In my case, focusing on a single passion is not right. I should stop whenever I feel weak at one passion and move along with another before going back again to the first. I know I do not have so much passion so I guess it is time to build one, or two. Although I did love doing other things, this time, I should spend my time evenly. I really need to spend my money to do other things as well. I need that grit to do things, and I should start now. 

I hope that I won't get anxious, again.

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