Case closed

    
Reminiscing the day you gave me chocolate, you looked at me from afar and we exchanged smiles. I liked you, to be honest. Then God gave me a test. He let someone I knew very well, come and greet me back. Someone I really adore that much. Two options; chase someone who I love, or let you love me. I was stupid so I asked for opinions. So I received so many answers, from familiar faces around me at that moment. So it was time to make a decision. Then I chased and failed. So I wanted to fix our relationship, but it was too late. Who could have thought, you were with someone who I shared my story with?

This is my turning point in how I see people. As time passed, I realized that I shared my story too much with people who I thought I could trust. Believe me, some people like to listen to your story and see if they can take advantage of your stupid decision. One man's loss is another man's gain. I admit I made mistakes, and I thought I have a very supportive circle. That was also a mistake.

It's all over now. Thankfully I had time to apologize to you and you accepted, coldly. Everything happened for a reason, it does not matter if I get it or not. Now, I can see things clearly. Alhamdulillah. It's about time, to move on and I am happy for you.

Thank you for the memories.

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